My goodness I can't believe I can now say I will be seeing you all
NEXT WEEK!!!!!!!! Hope you're ready for me. Ha ha.. I don't think
there is really anything to get ready. And to invite.....Kimberly can
just post it on facebook to tell my friends. Thanks!
Well this week has been good but kind of
stressful. Just one of those weeks you want to push hard yet everything
else is pushing against you. A lot of our appointments fell through.
One that bugged me was with one of our members. We keep planning a
time to come over and everytime we are on our way, she cancels on us.
She set up a time this past week saying that day is the best. Well....
she called and said we can't come over any more because it's the
Dancing with the Stars finale. Sister Bee and I were so annoyed. What
an excuse. Someone needs to write a book of all the dumb excuses you
hear as missionaries or just members in general. My goodness. I hope
she enjoyed the show more than she would have enjoyed her time with us.
Anyway..
Had my last Zone Conference this week too. It was
what I needed to hear. I've been beating myself up lately (I guess not
lately, I always do, but more so this week then others) on what kind of
missionary I've been. I feel very ashamed I didn't give it my all.
President Gelwix's nephew came and spoke to us. He was just released
from his mission 2 weeks ago. He was one of the missionaries serving in
Ukraine that was released early. We all had a long talk about how you
can't expect to give it your all later on in your mission, but that
everyday needs to be your all because you never know when it really will
be your last day. He says he has no regrets and is glad he feels that.
I know I've done a good job even though I know I could have done
better. It's hard not to have regrets in certain aspects. I hope when I
get back and look through journals and pictures, that I will feel more
of the effect that I truly made here. I know you hear about them all
the time, but I am grateful for the Horan family in helping me see what
impact I have had in their family. Jim is the sweetest guy ever and has
really been a blessing in my life to see just how dumb I am to beat
myself up all the time. I can't wait for you all to meet them along
with all the other wonderful families I have met throughout my mission.
At the conference though, as I gave my farewell testimony, I got up
there and had to go first. I had tried thinking of what to say for the
past couple days but had nothing. As I went up, words were literally
coming out of my mouth. I know you hear that all the time, but my brain
and mouth were not connected at all and it was crazy that I could
actually tell. In my head I was thinking "what am I saying?", as I just
am rambling on. I sat down and had no idea what I just said. Everyone
said they liked it, so I guess that's a good sign. Ha ha.. Never had
that before until then.
I know I still have one more emailing day, but I
just want all of you to know just how truly grateful I am to each and
every one of you in all that you have physically, mentally, spiritually,
emotionally, and socially done for me. I honestly can say I would not
have been able to stay out here had it not been for all the support,
love, and encouragement I received from ALL of you. I am so glad I made
this choice to serve a mission. I wish more people could experience
the things you experience on a mission. I guess that's why we all just
need to go on one! :) I don't even know how to explain the things I've
witnessed or felt. But I know what I know to be true. I love this
gospel so very much. It really can bring us such happiness if we do
what we are asked to do. I have seen how it's not "cool" to do the
things that are required and asked of us, yet have seen an even greater
witness to the blessings and power that comes from doing those things
that are required and asked of us. I have a greater understanding of
Gods love for each of us. He literally is our father in heaven, and
just like our fathers here on earth, He wants what is best for us and
knows exactly what we need in life to help us be successful. I hope you
all take a moment and ponder about the things that you know to be true.
I know there will come a stronger knowledge to you that those things
are true. Thank you for sharing this year and a half with me and
learning and growing with me. I hope we all can continue to have
missionary opportunities and experience the joy of this Gospel.
This week will be weird as I start saying goodbye to
those families and friends here in Hanford. I'm ready to come home and
see you all! It's been a long year and a half but also very fast. I
was telling Sister Bee the other day about my 1st day in arriving at the
MTC. I had to stop myself from crying all over again. What emotions
and feelings that day brought. Now I'm at the end and have made it
through. What a journey! :)
I love you all and hope this week is a good one for
you and that you enjoy this last week using my bedroom, clothes,
furniture, movies, etc. without me caring. Ha ha jk. Until next Monday! Take care!!!!!
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
- Hermana Sorensen
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